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Lola said:
I can’t abide by my companies policies anymore. I had to leave work today again because of what’s going on with my health issues. They were literally upset with me! I am absolutely drained, always on edge, being treated like dog doo doo after I haven given them my life to them. This is just going to go from bad to a new nightmare that I don’t want to experience. Corporate has hired some young guns. They think their sh*t don’t stink. Hatred is starting to rear it’s ugly head.
Just too many games being played now and there is going to be a loser. And that will be me. They have compromised my health long enough. I am literally at my wit’s ends. I have had enough. My loyalty to this company has always been to a fault. You know when you just have to say NO MORE. There’s no more I can do! HR is a joke. Always putting the company before employees.

I have been pondering this all night. I told my youngest son about what’s going on and did he have any positive thoughts about what I sm doing. He sent me this.

Mom you will be fine, at the very least to tell whoever you have to talk to about it because you've been having ongoing stomach problems and have seen specialists because of it and it's still not fixed.Your now seizures. You look horrible. You have lost too much weight. Your health has been greatly affected/compromised.
You've worked there for 14 years, you are the literal backbone of that company and if they want to give you no support they are f*cking stupid and it's to your benefit as you don't need their sh*t/stress anyways! You will be fine! Big deal! THEY NEED YOU, YOU DONT NEED THEM! Lol, that place will burn to the ground without you hahaha! So don't worry and who cares what they do!

It’s 4:40 am can’t sleep. It has to change. Had to vent.
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So much of this hits home for me. I have had a couple of jobs that I have absolutely hated to the point of them affecting my health. I try to not let that happen anymore. The place I am at gets me right to the edge on this about once every year or two. That is why I was telling you that I am going at this now with more the mindset of a transactional basis. That keeps me sane and allows me to do work at the quality I like to do it at.

One thing I have learned and I tell everyone of my direct reports this and my boss has even started saying it, HR is not your friend. They are there to limit liability to the company, period. Be very careful with what you tell them and how you convey it. It can easily come back on you. The company I work at has a ton of interoffice politics. It persists even though many of us have been working remote now for 4 years. It is silly to me how much energy gets wasted on some things and how punishments get handed out based on how the situation looks to someone.

I had a job once, many years ago, where I was doing all I could the help the business succeed and be a good loyal employee. One woman that I worked with got a little upset with me one day and said something to me that I carry with me yet to this day. She cornered me, literally, and said "this place ran just fine before you got here and it is going to run just fine after you are gone." That didn't set well with me at that moment but it really made me start thinking. She was right. They may have suffered a bit by not having me there but the business was structured in a way that someone would step into my position and learn the ropes and carry on. The suffering would only last as long as it took someone to figure things out and carry on. Businesses sometimes listen to a new person in a role more than someone that has been there for a long time and give them what they ask for to give them a win and make them feel good about the position and company. I have seen that happen too. Then you get ticked because you told them over and over that needed done but they wouldn't let you do it. Then someone new comes in and says the same thing and they gladly do it.

I hope you can find a way to frame this stuff mentally to not internalize it so much. That is how I approached it and I feel that was the best way for me. Something I learned in a management training many years ago, which wasn't part of the training but came to me as a side though during it, is that I can't control people's actions and words but I can control how I let it affect me and my actions thereafter. Take the power back for the things you can control and kind of shrug off the things you can't.
 
What really ticks me is that we had a new computer system installed and you would think that they would of had training in place. I learned most of what I know by myself. And then when they ask me to do something that I have no clue with they get really angry. Their training programs are poorly designed. I could be teaching IT at my company for god’s sake. They are so behind the technology 8 ball. This at times frustrates me to no end and it makes my job more difficult to get done in a timely proficient manner.

I just want to have a blow out of emotions especially on the owner of this disorganized chaotic company. He hasn’t a clue to what’s going on. He has his head in the sand. Taking in all the money we make him and pissing off his loyal employees royally!
 
Had my brother over for supper Saturday night. Missus is away in Arizona and I had to eat anyway, he's the world's worst cook so I did up a ham and a dish of scalloped potatoes (yes from scratch) and baked a cherry pie (the last of my frozen cherries from our old tree) as well. He doesn't stick around for long, he's still coming to grips with his loss but this time he actually stayed longer and we visited and talked for a couple hours.
I set a bit of temptation and had my HBII on a stand and my Katana amp in the living room just to see if he'd notice. Sure enough, when he went out on the deck to have a smoke after supper he saw it sitting there on the way back in and asked me if I was going to "play something on that thing?" So I did. Using the Piezo pickup into the acoustic channel I played (just me playing by myself, no backing tracks) and sang a couple that he would know. Easy listening, singer/songwriter stuff, he doesn't have much flair for anything heavier than the 70's Eagles or old Elvis and Beatles. He was suitably impressed, he'd never really heard me play anything live, just a few clips here and there from whenever I was out playing. So then I figured what the heck and launched into my pseudo acoustic rendition of Hotel California. Pretty much blew him away, so I reckon I sorta nailed it. Personally I think the vocal wasn't the best but he enjoyed every second so I guess that's a win. Fairly certain he thought I'd lost my mind when he saw my guitar family growing.
Now if I'd bought a jet/river boat for 3 or 4 times the money I've spent on guitars and gear he'd have instantly approved of that.😂

Now for you dog lovers out there, this is pretty true:
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I need to disconnect from my phone! It’s such a waste of MY time and yes I am so addicted to it.

Could you honestly disconnect from your phone?
 
Lola said:
I need to disconnect from my phone! It’s such a waste of MY time and yes I am so addicted to it.

Could you honestly disconnect from your phone?
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I stopped using all social media about 2 years ago. I honestly don't miss it and that took away a lot of my phone use. That was a huge thing for me. I go on motorcycle trips a few times a year and I am pretty much fully disconnected during those. Things have to wait until I stop somewhere to answer so it is more of a thing of when I get time instead of it running the schedule.
 
Lola said:
Seriously when I come through the door after work and see my 3 doggos rushing to come and greet me. It’s the best experience ever. Nothing can rival this experience. Just pure love and joy!
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I have two dogs now that INSIST on jumping all over us when we get home. The funny thing is that even if I go up town and aren't gone for 15 minutes, they act like I've been at work all day. The problem is, I hate to crush their excitement but have tried for a year to teach them not to jump. Some clothes might get snagged, and it's just a bad habit. So far, I can't stop them from doing it though.
 
JasonE said:
Do you have any proof on those claims? I am suspicious on a couple of them. :)
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The big one, I do bath myself. Almost daily. That's a biggy on days like today where it's storming all day and we have 1/2 acre fenced in back yard. I let them out, they see a squirrel, and race around the yard chasing it. They come back covered with mud.

Otherwise... I guess my wife still does feed me most of the time however, I can feed myself when she's not here, so another check for me. And I'm a lotta fun in person, although now that I think about it, my wife doesn't let me just jump right up in her lap as soon as she sits down and lick all over her face and bring my toys to play with her. So in this case, I think I'd be more fun, but I can't get away with what they do so, one point for the dogs.
 
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