I totally get it. When I entered into that meditation routine, I was trying to affect a big change in my life as detailed above. I also had felt that meditation seemed a tad silly to me (used to feel the same way about golf), but once I got into my routine (after about a month or so), it was a very comforting time. I generally did my routine shortly before bed time. I would recommend that you do some research like I did about what people do in their routines/practices, what meditation means to people, what you want out of it, and develop something of your own that does not feel silly. It really is very relaxing and it helped me clear my head each day considering that was part of my routine, to not let ANY other thoughts into my head, just looking inward and trying to get in touch with my mind and my body and my soul rather than the world in which I exist at this time.