CandidPicker
Tone Matters. Use It Well.
We live in an advantaged day.
Antibiotics; disinfected water; dentistry; Private Stock PRSes...
Rusty,
How are you feeling this evening? It worries me when folks we're acquaintances or friends with online experience illnesses or conditions that require recurring treatment.
My Dad was a kidney home dialysis patient for about 8 years following surgery. I think it's the way human life exists today...we're given only a brief time to be born, raised, work, enjoy family life, retire, grow old, get sick and then die.
Though I do not fear death myself. In my view, unless it's from some violent means, it's usually peaceful and only involves falling asleep from which you don't awaken. Perhaps that is reassurance that someday, unless we're doing something we shouldn't do, the letters, R.I.P. are literal. We don't earn wages, we don't experience pain, and quite frankly, we go back to the earth and become part of the ecosystem again.
Perhaps the only "fun" we have is while we're alive...then others can celebrate our lives at our funerals. Me, I think I'd prefer to let my ashes be scattered modestly if state regs don't conflict with family's wishes.
Meanwhile, it would take a lot more for me to hand in my scorecard and call it quits from life. Maybe in the final analysis, let it be said that my memory would rest in God's hands, and perhaps may he find favor with me.
I sincerely hope your strong back will help you live this life to its fullest, considering those whom you cherish, and forgiving those who may have slighted you in the past. It's most of what we can do until we're called home for the big sleep.